Suicide Prevention Month holds deep meaning for me. It’s a time to reflect on the darkness I’ve experienced, the transformative power of yoga, and the hope that can emerge even in the darkest moments. I want to share how the practice of yoga became my anchor and how it might help others who are struggling.
The Weight of Darkness
Living with depression feels like moving through quicksand—every step requires immense effort, and sometimes it feels like sinking is the only option. For many years, I wore a mask, hiding the deep sadness and isolation that was gnawing at me from the inside. Even when I was surrounded by friends or family, I felt alone.
Yoga entered my life at a time when I was struggling to hold on.
The Healing Power of Yoga
Yoga isn’t a magic cure for depression, but it offers tools for healing that I never expected. When I first stepped onto my mat, I wasn’t looking for enlightenment or inner peace. I was just looking for a break from the noise in my mind. What I found, instead, was a path toward reconnection—both with myself and with life.
Breath as Lifeline
In the midst of a mental health crisis, it’s easy to forget something as simple as breathing. But in yoga, the breath becomes a focal point. Pranayama, the practice of breath control, helped me learn how to ground myself. Each inhale was a reminder that I was still here, still alive. Each exhale gave me permission to let go—if only for a moment—of the weight I was carrying.
Physical Movement as Release
As someone battling depression, I often felt disconnected from my body. My mind was consumed by pain, and my body felt like a vessel just going through the motions. Through asanas (poses), I began to reconnect with my body, to feel it move, stretch, and strengthen. I realized that my body was still capable, still strong, even when my mind felt weak.
Mindfulness as Awareness
Yoga’s emphasis on mindfulness helped me observe my thoughts without judgment. In meditation, I could witness the stream of thoughts—some dark, some neutral, some hopeful—without getting lost in them. This practice of non-attachment, of being the observer, gave me the space to see that I wasn’t my depression. I was experiencing depression, but it didn’t define me.
A Message of Hope
To anyone reading this who may be struggling, I want you to know that your pain is valid, but it’s not permanent. The thoughts of despair, hopelessness, or even wanting to end your life are not weaknesses. They are signs that something inside you needs care, attention, and healing. Reaching out for help is not easy, but it’s necessary—and brave.
Whether through yoga, therapy, community support, or a combination of these, healing is possible. I found light again by leaning into the practice of yoga, but your journey may take a different path. The key is to keep going, even when it feels impossible.
Breaking the Silence
One of the most important aspects of Suicide Prevention Month is breaking the stigma around mental health. It’s essential that we talk openly about depression and suicide, not just in times of crisis but every day. As a yogi, I’ve learned the power of vulnerability and the importance of community. When we speak our truth, we allow others to do the same. And in that space, healing can happen.
Final Thoughts
As someone who has walked through the darkness and emerged with a deeper understanding of both my pain and my resilience, I want to encourage anyone who is struggling to reach out. Whether it’s a friend, family member, therapist, or a fellow yogi, there are people who want to listen and help.
You are not alone, and your life is worth fighting for. Yoga taught me that healing isn’t about perfection or having all the answers—it’s about showing up, even when you feel broken. It’s about finding breath in the stillness and movement in the struggle. And it’s about remembering that, even in the darkest moments, there is always a glimmer of light waiting to be discovered.
If you or someone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts, please reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255 or text "HELLO" to 741741 for the Crisis Text Line.
Om Shanti,
Brooke Mullins
Seeking Moksha, LLC
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